Giving You a Taste of my Hair History

my friend always tell me that if you don't have pictures, it didn't happen. lol. well, i don't have any pics of my WL hair, but i promise it was there. my hair was bunned up most of the time, so it wasn't hanging and blowing in the wind. my mom hated my hair down anyway. so i don't have anything to remind me of the old times except my memories. its sad that i don't have the pictures, but i never thought that i would have my short hair either. so my grandmother (my dad's side of the family) always had a big thing about appearances, especially hair. i felt like i was always compared to my older cousin. i felt horrible, because people including my family thought i wanted to be just like my cousin. so one day, i showed everyone and had my barely WL hair (i was trimming in it) chopped to EL!!! i know, i was crazy for doing it. but i loved the individualism i received afterwards. high price to pay for your own identity. not long ago, my cousin (who was WL also) cut her hair EL, too. so the comparison has returned. my confidence, which wasn't much in the begining is definitely GONE!!! i have decided to grow my hair back out to whatever it can grow too. also, i am hoping to gain back confidence more than i ever had. i am hoping that over the course of my last few semesters in college plus the hair journey will help me burst from my insecurity cocoon and emerge as the beautiful butterfly i see within myself.