Monday, June 18, 2012
Is it just me?
I have been deeply considering to cease my entire HHJ. I know one of the main rules of a HHJ is patience, but being APL for two years has made me quite bitter. I know that other ppl would say that it obvious my inability to retain length, but it seems like I can be baby soft with my hair, and still get little to no results. I don't know what to do. I have dreamed about my hair being WL for a future wedding of mines someday, but all I see now is me being APL forever. I am so bored and fed up with length. Yes, I should be grateful for this length. However, I am buying all of these products and not using direct heat like I would want to to no avail. Let's face it: I am discouraged and at the point of just saying forget it. I am not using the products I use to anyway. It almost seem like subconsciously I have already thrown in the towel. I would love to give up today, but I think I am going to give myself to the end of the summer. By then, I know what I will want to do for a fact. It has gotten to the point where I am stressing out about my hair. My hair has become a problem. My hair makes me feel bad about my entire appearance. My hair brings down my mood. It isn't fun anymore. It should not have this negative influence on me, so I know something is going to have to change soon. I don't know if it is the fact that I am home and my folks hate weave to the point where I don't wear any. It frustrates me. But I just don't have the strength to welcome the backlash I would receive if I brought home hair on my head that was not mines. What do you think about this entire thread? Let me know. Who knows? You comment could help me either way. I welcome it all.
Thanks in advance.
Sincerely,
Why do I even bother.
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- Alexis The Counselor
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I know about being stuck at APL forever and ever. I was experiencing breakage without even realising it. I had to completely change my regimen which wasn't working for me. Sad thing is I was doing everything right or so I thought but my products were not working. Unfortunately I realised my hair was breaking and had to go back to shoulder length. There have been times I have been so frustrated I have wanted to get a chin length bob and not have to worry and protective styling and length retention and all the other things that I concern myself with daily.
ReplyDeleteThen I think of my goal which is to have WL hair on my wedding day. No man in the picture yet, but it isn't magically going to get to WL when he does appear so I am working on growing it.
Hang in there. Maybe you need to revisit your products if you are not getting the results you want.
@Carolyn - thanks for commenting. your comment made me smile. i want to keep at it, but at this point im like, ehh. but imma try hard this summer.
ReplyDeleteAlexis you are definitely not alone. I have been on my HHJ for 4 yrs and keep getting my hair trimmed back to SL. I have seen so many others who have started after me and reached their goals. I know that I shouldn't compare my journey to another. I understand what your going through. I believe that if your hair is affecting the way you feel about yourself you should probably discontinue your hair journey or at least not make it so powerful. Your hair will continue to grow whether your on your hhj or not, even if very slowly. Perhaps you are experiencing breakage or you need to re-evaluate your products and regimen. Hate to hear how bad it's affecting you. It's not just you. When I get in these moods, I simplify my regimen and styling. Head band and a clip, thats's it. Let us know what you decide. I decided about a year ago that I am giving myself until December 2013 to continue to devote all of this time and energy to my hair
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