When I received my package, I was ecstatic. However, my brother rolled his eyes and went on a rant.
..:"Are you still trying to grow your hair? You have hair longer than most people around here. Isn't that enough? Why grow longer?":..
His words took me completely off guard. Here I am, I have read all of this information and I have looked through numerous Hairfinity testimonials. I was ready to give this a try again. But my brother's words screeched my entire thinking to a halt. I began to try to defend myself, lol. When I told him I was trying to grow my hair back to where it was, its longest length, between MBL and WL, he told me that it will never get that long again. My heart hurt a little bit. I became a little discouraged. He is family, by god! I haven't heard any ill words about my hair for a long time. So hearing my brother tell me that I would never grow my hair that long again stung. At first, I began to feel unappreciative. Why am I not appreciating the length I have now, the health I have now? I am grazing BSB, should I be appreciative of what I have? Of course, I should. Just look at my before pic. I have came a long ways. It has taken me a long time to get to this point. I literally clawed my way up by watching videos after videos, changing regimens after regimens, praying, etc. My brother's words weighed heavy on me. I stared at the bottle feeling selfish. I put the bottle down and went on to get ready for work without taking any supplements.
As I was getting ready, I just threw on some work clothes that didn't need ironing, not putting much thought into my work clothes. Then, I just threw on some shoes that matched, not putting much thought into my work shoes. However, I took time and detangled my hair with my fingers. Even though I am 8 weeks post, I had not problem with detangling, but I still like to do a good job. Next, I moisturized and sealed my hair, especially since the temperature has dropped significantly here. I wanted to make sure I took extra precautions as far as taking care of my hair from the cold. So, I pinned all my hair to my head and went to work.
After a LONG day at work, I came home and began taking down the pins and moisturizing my hair again. Even though my hair was well moisturized before work, the cold air and wind dried it out a little bit. So, I decided to show my hair just a little be more TLC before the day ended. I put my bonnet on and started working on a few things at home.
Then it hit me: I appreciate the health and the length by continuing to take care of my ends. I may want to grow my hair longer, but I am taking care of it to ensure length retention. I may not show my hair, or let it hang like most people around here, but that doesn't mean I appreciate my hair any less. I love my hair; its my hair and I grew it all by myself. I am selfish, but I feel like I have a reason to be now. I was once the but of some family members jokes, that my hair was the worst of the worst and my hair would never look as good as theirs. Now the tables have turned, and I am flourishing and they are struggling. It may seem selfish to my brother, but if we are equipped with the knowledge to do better, who are we not to take advantage of it? Well, Idk if anything I just said made any sense, but I took my supplements before bed, and I will do a Hairfinity comparison pic in a month.
Here is to a better day at work,
-Lexis