14 week stretch

so. i have decided to stretch my relaxer for a total of ten more weeks, giving me a grand total of fourteen. the decision was an immediate one. i really didn't do too much thinking about it. there are a couple reasons why i am doing this:

one, i am now four weeks post and i do not have any NG. i was going to have to relax my hair in seven weeks and i wasn't going to have that much NG.

two, i have been debating about whether i am going to go natural or not. i feel like this stretch would give me my true answer, whether i can handle it or not.

so i am excited about doing this stretch. if i want to go natural, i am pretty sure that i am not going to relax my hair and continue to transisition. i am so scared. lol. i have always had some kind of hair. so cutting it eventually scares me. my friend is actually transisitioning now. its been a month since her last relaxer, so she is already on her way. she is shaved in the back so the back of her head is already natural. another friend of mines went natural and she looks so good. another friend of mines is going natural too and she hasn't had a relaxer in four months.
my mom is going to hate my natural hair. i am going to continue to think about it, just to make sure my heart is in the right place and that i will not regret it. right now, i am just on the fence.