Why Have I Been This Length Forever?!

I have been armpit length a very long time. It frustrates me because I have been longer. I have tested those waters before. I know what it feels like. I have been there and I would love to be back there. The length I am talking about is waist length. Long years ago, I used to be waist length. However, I wanted to try a short style. So, I had my waist length hair cut to ear length. I felt like I was being compared to a cousin who had hair near my length, but not quite mines. I wanted my own personality. It was fun while it last, but now I want hair. I have stopped all of my unhealthy habits: flat ironning once a week, washing my hair only one every two months, not using a heat protectant, using cotton scarves at night time, relaxing every five weeks. It was so hard to give up, but I achieved it. But I still suffer from horrible split ends, which causes me to trim excessively throughout the year. I suffer from horrible dry hair, which increases my breakage. I sleep rough which causes me to lose my head coverage at night times. I relax four to five times a year. I trim my hair twice a year. Heat protectant is a must with a once a month heat pass. I use protein when needed, DC when needed. So, why am I still APL? It is completely frustrating. I even take my biotin now. I am hoping for a little something to hold on to this summer. I am stretching until the second week of August. That will put me at 10 weeks. After I get that relaxer, I do believe that I would like to stretch to thanksgiving or christmas. However, my hair not growing is leaving me to the point where I may want to call my HHJ quits. I feel like I already have mentally. My hair is stressing me out. I don't want to be like that. I have other things to worry about and I do not want my hair to add on extra stress that I cannot afford. So, if I quit this journey, what would I do? I don't know. It gets hard to read my hair boards and type this blog when I feel like a failure, hair wise at least. What can I blog about, that my hair is still the same? Honestly, I cannot even tell u if my hair is healthy or not. (sighs) maybe one day...

Is it just me?

I have been deeply considering to cease my entire HHJ. I know one of the main rules of a HHJ is patience, but being APL for two years has made me quite bitter. I know that other ppl would say that it obvious my inability to retain length, but it seems like I can be baby soft with my hair, and still get little to no results. I don't know what to do. I have dreamed about my hair being WL for a future wedding of mines someday, but all I see now is me being APL forever. I am so bored and fed up with length. Yes, I should be grateful for this length. However, I am buying all of these products and not using direct heat like I would want to to no avail. Let's face it: I am discouraged and at the point of just saying forget it. I am not using the products I use to anyway. It almost seem like subconsciously I have already thrown in the towel. I would love to give up today, but I think I am going to give myself to the end of the summer. By then, I know what I will want to do for a fact. It has gotten to the point where I am stressing out about my hair. My hair has become a problem. My hair makes me feel bad about my entire appearance. My hair brings down my mood. It isn't fun anymore. It should not have this negative influence on me, so I know something is going to have to change soon. I don't know if it is the fact that I am home and my folks hate weave to the point where I don't wear any. It frustrates me. But I just don't have the strength to welcome the backlash I would receive if I brought home hair on my head that was not mines. What do you think about this entire thread? Let me know. Who knows? You comment could help me either way. I welcome it all. Thanks in advance. Sincerely, Why do I even bother.

Reviewing A Dark and Lovely Product

It has been a while since I have posted a hair post, but here I am now. I actually wanted to give myself a little time to test this new product. It has been tested on me and my mother for about three weeks now, so I think that I am ready for review. Ok, the pic above is the product: Dark and Lovely Healthy Gloss 5 Moisture Leave In Treatment. I saw it in a Dollar General and read up on it and decided to try it. This is my very first D&L product so I was very nervous when trying this product. One thing that stuck out about the ingredients of the product was PANTHENOL, an common substance in hair products that encourage hair growth. So, I decided to try it out. First, I washed my hair with ORS shampoo. I did not use any conditioner or deep conditioner because, one - my hair was well moisturized before the washing, two - I did not want to throw my moisture balance out of wack by using a DC and this as a moisturizing leave in. So, on freshly washed hair, I detangled softly with a widetooth comb. Then, I parted my hair in sections. On the first section, I sprayed the product at my roots and my ends, not on my length. I then massaged the product on my roots and ends, still not on my length. When I combed through that entire section, that section of hair was left with evenly coated. I continued this method until my entire head was done. I commensed with a roller set and sat under the dryer for about an hour and a half. This is what I was left with: My camera is very crappy, but the results in my eyes turn out pretty good. My hair was soft right after the dryer. My hair had body, my hair was straight and my hair looked extremely healthy. One thing I did not care for was that my hair had little shine. So, the following week, I decided to try it again, the entire method mentioned above. ONLY THIS TIME, I added a few drops of olive oil on top of my hair after the product was evenly distributed. This time it turned out exactly how I wanted, full of body, full of shine, looking very healthy. The pictures I took of this set were accidently deleted :( . I am horrible sad. But, I am going to do a roller set again today so I will post this pic up sometime today. I also tried this product on my mother's hair. My hair is much longer than my mother's; my mother has more stronger hair than mines due to the fact that she does not use heat in her hair at all. So, I tried this product on her hair for about three weeks. Her results were just as good. I tried something different for my birthday. I used my heat pass and decided to flat iron my hair after the Dark and Lovely product had air dried on my hair. There were the results: This is also not a good picture, but the jury is still out whether I like this product when flat ironned. The pros of this product is that my hair detangles alot better now. I do not lose hardly any hair. The con of this product is that it smells horrible. However, when the product is applied, you don't notice it. I am still out whether I like it on flat ironned hair because my hair was very limp. So, I hope you like this review. I am going to do another real soon on a Suave product, so be on the look out for that one. With Love!

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Emergency trim!!!!!

So I was cleaning up my room yesterday and saw a clean storage container full of rollers. So I was going through the rollers and found my salon sheers. I was in a trance. I stopped everything I was doing and went straight into the bathroom mirror and started trimming my hair. So I took off a minuscule amount, nothing that could me measure...until I saw my hair was uneven from my hair trying to grow out. So I trimmed it. Then I realized that my middle was thinner than the side ends. So I trimmed that. Then I realized that one side was a tad bit longer. So I trimmed that. I stepped back to exam everything and realized that I was two inches shorter. At first I was shocked at how much a ''trim'' had cost me. But when I looked closer my hair as a whole looked so much thicker without the thin ends. I mean they weren't that thin but with them gone, I feel awesome. I got my summer cut I guess and I cannot wait until it grows back because I am going to try my best to maintain this evenness and this thickness. So I am in love. I am going to flatiron my hair on June 1st so my hair can officially be surveyed in detail. Excited!!!!! Until next time!

Operation: OMI One month update!!!

So, yesterday made a month since I started really acting right. I have a goal, and by golly I want to reach it. My goal is still BSB before the end of the summer and I am excited to think that I can make it. I am going to try quite a few things this summer and I am going to do a few reviews on the things I try and use. First thing that I am going to try is the Suave Keratin Line shampoo and conditioner for color treated and dry/frizzy hair. I am going to see what it can do as far as strengthening my hair. I will use that line this summer and report on that. Another thing that I am going to try out is heat protectant of my choice. My birthday is next Friday. I may use it then or wait. I haven't decided yet. Another thing I will try is a different relaxer. There is something about my hair that I cannot put my finger on that is causing it not to retain. I thought it was moisture, oil, protein, etc. I have been down the line, but I am going to see if my relaxer is too strong for my hair. SO I am going to experiment with an even milder relaxer. That is just a few things. I will make sure I keep everyone updated. As far as my update, my hair has gotten a smidge thicker. It has gotten where it takes more moisturizer to quench its thirst. I am trying to find a very reasonable balance with my hair where I will not get myself in a devastating bind. It has been months since I have had a trim. It looks like a I need one, but I will put that off until further notice. So, I will continue to do good by my hair and I will keep the updates coming. mwah!

My new length photo

Hello. So this is my hair. I apologize for it not being completely straight for an accurate measurement. However, I am hovering over BSB. My goal for the summer is to be full BSB by the first week in August. It will take lots of discipline and lots of research, but I see myself making it. I believe that it is appropiate goal considering the time. So here is my starting photo for my summer challenge. Wish me luck as I reach my goal. Mwah!